Shrimp, Endless Shrimp....

I have been dying to eat Shrimp for the last three months. I looooooovvvvveeeee Shrimp Scampi! My mouth is watery just looking at the pic.

The combination of the wine with the butter, such succulent pleasure...yummy!

I think I will have Shrimp this weekend with the girls. I will make it a point to have it. I simply must have some Shrimp...... Arghhh!

Books and other things...

I just finished reading "Loving Che", a novel by Ana Menendez. Great book, story was told with complete remorse to the protagonist. I loved it. In brief, the story is about a woman in search of the mother who gave her to her grandfather in search of a better life in the states. She was born in Cuba. She goes on a journey to Cuba in a span of ten years to find nothing until she receives a box with letters and pictures from her "mother". Telling her daughter of the love affair she had with El Comandante Che Guevara. Except the woman keeps walking into dead ends until she is approached by another young woman who says she knows of someone that knew her mother. Well, I will say no more. Go get the book. You won't regret it. I also read in Latina Magazine that Eva Mendez and her production company bought the rights to the book and are working on a movie version. Can't wait to see it.

Another book I read two weeks ago was "In Her Shoes" by Jennifer Wiener. Loved it! The movie version is due out this weekend with Cameron Diaz. I hope the movie is as good as the book. I will keep you guys posted for sure.
I don't know what book I will read next. I have so many that I purchased and are just sitting there waiting for my hands to just pick it up, arghhh!

On another note, I am looking forward to a fun filled weekend. One of my dear friends is flying up from Florida with her neice tomorrow and will be here for the long weekend. I can't wait to see her. Elizabeth was my boss when I lived in Miami. We remained very close and never lost touch. It has been almost ten years now. Wow. Anyways, this is only her second time to NYC so I want to make the best of it for her. She has never been to a Broadway show so I guess that is on my list. We will be going dancing for sure. I haven't done that in a while. Gotta start making those phone calls....lol.

Something else I have been doing on my spare time, which I tend to have alot of at work, is house hunting. I really want to buy a house. The thought of actually owning property is something that has been on my mind a lot lately. I have two girlfriends who are a few years younger than me and already own property. I guess it's something I never really dwelled on because I am such a city girl. I have always lived in an apartment. Being 32 has really made me think alot of what it really is I want out of my future. I think of how far I have come and then look back because I have nothing to really to show for it or fall back on. I took advantage of "Credit Cards" in my early College years therefore ruining my credit without realize the toll it would take when real life hits. Its gets very frustrating but I am trying. I am starting to put things in perspective and coming to the realization that I need to be an adult and with that comes doing adult things. Investing, saving...ughhh, I don't even know where to begin but at least I know I want to.

That's a start for me.

How time flies

I tell you, look at that face.... Isn't he handsome? He is already 15 and before I know it he will be 18, then 21 then married with children of his own. I know I come on here and bitch and moan but I love him. He is my son and I will cherish him forever. To me, he will always be my little boy. Muah!

Summer is officially over

As of tomorrow anyways....lol. I must say I had a great summer. My son turned 15, I am in love and I have no complaints about my work. My son started Highschool and well, so far so good. I had to take away his cell phone though, he ran up a $300 bill all due to a new girlfriend. "For every action there is a consequence, with risk comes reward" just a few things my boyfriend always says. He is right though. I have had to take a few things away from my son in order for him to comprehend that he has to earn the things he wants. Limits, its all about setting limits, something I should have done a long time ago.

Sometimes I second guess myself or question whether or not I am a good mom. It's so hard doing it on your own and I get so emotionally overwhelmed. His dad is in his life on ocassion. When it's convenient for him or when it doesn't interfere with his personal life....geez. Funny how life is huh. Once I gave birth to my son, my life no longer belonged to me. Everything I did, every decion I made was based on him and yet this man has not an inkling of what that is like and this is his son too.

I have been blessed to have found someone who shares the same values and thoughts of what parenting should be like. We want to be there for our kids, we want to make and share memories with them, we want our kids to always know that they can come to us no matter what. We are not looking for "replacement parents" for our children no matter how bad our previous relationships were. We just want to be able to share opinions and ideas and thoughts. We want to be there for one another and for the kids. We want to be able to show them that not every relationship is the same. Just because things didn't work out before doesn't mean that it won't now. We compliment eachother and don't take eachother for granted. We give eachother space and yet indulge in our times spent together. Knowing and understanding eachother is what makes things work. Respect is number one and when you show that towards eachother, the kids learn from it and embrace it. I wouldn't trade it for the world. Every couple have their moments of misunderstandings and disagreements, ofcourse. It wouldn't be normal without it, but when you stop and think and rationalize and work it out, its the best feeling. Love is powerful and with love comes understanding and patience. I wouldn;t have it any other way.

Ok, ok...enough of the mushy stuff, now for some more updates. We went to Six Flags with the kids. It was our "Family Trip". We had alot of fun and then ofcourse, we caught a flat on the way home....ughh! We did the Zoo thing and the movie thing alot. I saw so many movies this summer. I can't complain there. We are saving up now for Christmas. I didn't go to Miami this year but my girlfriend from Miami will be coming to visit me instead. That is going to be fun. I must make sure she gets to see a Broadway show this time. Another one of my girlfriend got engaged last week and another friend, a childhood friend is getting married in November and asked me to be a Bridesmaid....lol. I couldn't say no.

Well, this weekend is my cousin's housewarming party so that should be fun. I will get to see a few people I haven't seen in a while. My cousin and her boyfriend got their own place together so this will be the first time that his family will meet my family....yikes...lol.

I want to start writing again but my mind is at a blank write now. I guess I will start to carry a journal with me because then when I get those moments when I do have alot on my mind, I can jot it all down and go from there....until then, take care.

Sweating Bullets...huh?

Ever wonder where that term came from? Can one actually sweat bullets, not. Does it mean that the sweat is shaped like a bullet...hmmm. I can't figure this one out and it has been bothering me all day. Sweating bullets...it even sounds weird on my tongue. Inqiring minds want to know or at least me...lol.

I have discovered that....

I hate Coney Island!!! Arghhhhhh! Why does that place even exist? They are over priced and it is so ghetto. It costs $4.00 for each ride...can you believe that? Why am I ranting about Coney Island you ask...well I was there last weekend with my son and my nephews.
Ok, let me not skip the details of my weekend. Friday night I stayed in with my son and we rented movies. My boyfriend came over with some dinner, then we watched music videos till 1am. Saturday I took Josh, my son, to see "Fantastic Four" and "Rebound". They were both great movies. "Rebound" was funny as hell. Martin Lawrence has outdone himself with this film. We went home and I made dinner for my son. His favorite....or better said, his new favorite. He now loves my Angel Hair pasta with breaded chicken breast. it was yummy!!!
I got up yesterday at about 7am, made some breakfast for my son and wished him a Happy Birthday. He is now 15! Wepa! We headed to the beach where I met up with my ex sis-in-law and the kids. My boyfriend met up with us later that day with his brother and their kids...it was a bunch of us but wow, we had fun. Well, by 7pm, my nephews wanted to go to Conely Island so my boyfriend and my sis-in-law convinced me to take Josh for a bit. Well....off we go.

We decided to walk there since it was only two train stops away. So we walked on the board walk. It was packed...my goodness. The weather was great! Cool breeze and the smell of the ocean did me in. Now, we get on line to buy tickets...this is where I was like "Oh no!" They wanted $4.00 per ride including the kiddie rides. I was so irritated by then that I just sat around and waited while my sis took her kids on the rides. My son and I just hung out looking at all the wackos that wander that amusement park. By the time we left there it was almost 11:00pm My son and I ended up getting home at about 1am. We were exhausted.

Now, this weekend we went to Six Flags, that was fun! On Friday we drove my boyfriend to the airport, he was headed to PR for a week, he is due back this Friday. While we were headed there, the car started to make this screeching noise. My boyfriend and I were not sure what it was so when we got to the airport and lifted the hood, it was the Alternater. Ofcourse, it just so happens to be my luck that right when my man decides to go to PR, the car gets messed up. He insisted that it was no big deal and that I would be fine for my trip to Six Flags. I was not so optimistic. I decided to have my dad check it out that night. After driving what seemed like forever in immense traffic on the Van Wyck, I made it to my dad's in one piece. He opened the hood, confirmed that it was the alternater and also said that it was no big deal but that I should have his mechanic friend check it out in the morning. I agreed.

Saturday morning I get up at 6am. Wake my son and God-daughter, feed them breakfast then head out to my dad's at 7:30am. I got to my dad's house about 8am, had the kids go upstairs to stay with my mom and left with my dad to meet his mechanic friend. Well, well. We waited until 9:30 before his friend came downstairs and confirmed yet again that it was the alternater but that it was in no cindition for me to make the 1 hour drive to Six Flags. I had to change the alternater right away, if not leave it parked. So ofcourse, I get it fixed. It cost me 3 hours and $70 bucks. The car was ready to go by 12:30pm. I headed to NJ to meet my girlfriend who was driving in her car with her kids to Six Flags also. Somehow she takes for ever....which is no surprise so we end up getting to Six Flags by 3:00pm. Half the day gone.arghhh! I was so annoyed. Alas, we get on all the good rides, stuff our faces with ice cream and funnel cakes and before we know it, its 11pm and time to head back home. I won't get into the details of why I got home at 3am but lets just say traffic was a bitch and looking for parking was a drag as well. All in all we had a great time!!!!!!

Sunday, my cousin took my son to Dorney Park while I stayed and got a Mani and a pedi. Alone time is always appreciated!!!!!

Out with the old, In with the new..

This is something I heard quite a few times this weekend. More so being said by someone close to me. Must be their subtle way of saying it's time to move on. I couldn't agree more. I am who I am and refuse to live by someone else's standards. We all make mistakes in life, some we learn from and some we don't until it bangs us in the head time and time again. I, on the other hand, have awoken to a realization that no matter what you do in life, chances need to be taken. Life is too short to sit and wait for something to happen. I am a firm believer in following your instincts. They have never steered me wrong. I am in a place in my life where things are calm and serene. I take everyday as it comes and hold no expectations. I believe everything happens for a reason and therefore have no regrets about the decisions I make in my life. I don't need anyones approval but my own and it feels great!

There have been many times when I have made decisions or done things in my life because someone else thought it was right but then I always had that feeling in the pit of my stomach that even though they thought it was right for me, I didn't feel it was. I suffered the consequences in the end, not them. Maybe my not wanting to be the opposer or party pooper have led me to these decisions but nonetheless, they were my doing. Maybe I am not being clear right now with what it is I am trying to express and that is fine. I don't care. If I don't feel like correcting myself, that is fine also. Why? Because it is my decision not to correct it. It is my decision to not be correct in how I right. Those who don't like it can go somewhere else.
My living my life to suit someone else is over. I am finally living my life for me and it feels great!!

So to those who don't agree with me or don't have my back anymore because I decide to do things my way I say this "Out with the Old, and In with the New"...... Turning a new leaf has never felt more right than now.

Adios!

The Heat is on!!

Oh my Lordie, this weather has been super duper hot. Thank goodness for the AC I have in my room, if not I would have baked. Its not supposed to rain this weekend but you never know. Summer in NYC is so muggy....illk. People sweat and stink. You get annoyed on the train because you have to stand next to people who can't smell themselves. It's nasty I tell ya! The humidy makes your hair frizz and the makeup never stays on cause you're too busy wiping the sweat off. I miss the dry heat of New Mexico. No bad hair days at all....hehehe.

The Puerto Rican parade is this Sunday and I am sure the streets will be packed. I am passing on that and going to the beach with my son instead. We both love being at the beach. It beats staying in the city and we get to swim. Yesterday I went with my son to his HS orientation, it was nice. It is a new school with only 112 students. They have a strict dress code and honor code. I think my son will do well there. He is siked and really liked the school. There is just one thing, he has to attend summer school. He did not pass the Math Statewide therefore he needs to take it over. Oh well...so much for him wanting to travel to St. Maarten with his best friend. Education first!

On another note, I have a ride for the summer....yipeee.. My boyfriend bought a car so now I will be able to get around when necessary. I can take my son to Six Flags for his bday and get myself to my girlfriend's wedding with out a problem. We will be able to get around with ease and take road trips as well. We are siked. Now my boyfriend can drive up from Brooklyn rather than take the hour long train ride. It's a good investment.

All is well in the love dept. Things couldn't be better. I guess good things do come to those who wait. We are very happy and very in love. I wouldn't change a thing.

Work:
I took a Microsoft office seminar this week to tweak my Excel skills a bit and I am glad I did. I learned a few new tricks. Next week I take the Word course. I need to learn Mail merging. I never had to use it before but now I do.....yikes. I am sure I will enjoy as I did the Excel course. I am really considering teaching. It's something that has crossed my mind a few times but now I just really want to do it. I will be attending the workshop then I have to enroll in school again. I need to get my Bachelors...big time. Wow, there is so much I want to do. I want to write a book, be a teacher and own a business. Geez, where do I begin .....

My Rising Sign is.....

Your Rising Sign is Virgo

Well put-together and elegant, you sometimes seem standoffish. And truth be told, sometimes you do feel superior to those around you. A bit shy and introverted, you tend to stay quiet - even if you're feeling social. At parties, you can seem like you're very serious while you're having fun. You clever and ingenious, with an alert and active mind. Good at facts and figures, you excel at logical and mathematical tasks.

Sunshine and Fresh air...

is how I can descibe the backdrop of our trip to New Mexico. What a delight it was. Relaxation was the target and that I accomplished. The scenery was beautiful and the people were great. The best part was actually getting to meet fellow "Sucias". We all bonded and enjoyed eachother's company except for a handful, but no trip would be the same with out those few who try so hard to impress and act like they are better than others. They are only masking their insecurites by trying to show off that which they lack. Individuality!!! Come on people. Don't try so hard. Why does one find it so hard to be themselves? Geez!!

New Mexico was beautiful! I must admit, I never would have even considered visiting that state if it weren't for Alisa. The people were friendly and the weather was great! I couldn't stop taking pictures of those mountains. Not something you will ever see in NYC! All of us agreed that our next trip will be an All-Inclusive to possibly Punta-Cana or the Bahamas! Yipee. And hopefully that will be with the wonderful women who we met at this retreat.

On another note, there was no tension between my bestfriend and I, at least not from my part. Everything was great. We had fun as usual, even though we kinda spent alot of time in the bathroom...lol. I think I will blame our gas on the "High Altitude". I took lots of pictures and hopefully will have the opportunity to post them once I learn how to set it up on here.

Ok well, thats all for now. I am still in New Mexico time....haven't slept. Maybe got two hours...yikes!

Just a few things....

One more week and off we go to New Mexico for the 1st Annual Sucia Retreat!!! I am sure it will be fun and relaxing. Yipeeee....Can May 27 get here any quicker?
Anyways, today is Friday, finally. I am looking forward to this weekend so I can just chill out and unwind. Catch up on my Netflix movies that have been sitting on my desk for a bit. I also have some cleaning to do but nothing major. Arghhhhh!

Well here is a little update on my life......I spoke with my dad yesterday who tells me he changed his house number again because my older brother deosnt seem to stop calling and hanging up. My older brother was recently released from NJ county jail after an 8mth stint. Its a long story which I personally don' care to explain at the moment, only because I don't think he deserves the notariety. He doesn't speak with us but he insists on calling my dad's house and then hanging up not thinking that we *69 his ass and know its him.......Hence forth my dad changing his number yet again.
My son has been doing well in school and he will be graduating JHS on June 16.......Go Josh!!! Big up to "Big J"....lol.... I am proud! No comes HS, yeeeshhhh. I am more nervous than he is. I am just afraid that things will not go well or that he will be influenced in a wrong way. I am scared and its ok....I am his mom, I am supposed to worry, right?? I have confidence in my child and know that he can excel in whatever he chooses.
I kinda sorta cleared the air with my best friend regarding my personal life but I still feel like she doesn't want to hear what I have to say. Mind you, I am 31 yrs old and can make my own decisions but I just feel like I can't share what is making me happy right now with her because I feel like she is so against it. I know she means well and only wants for me to becareful but I have to go thru experiences in order to achieve happiness. All in all, I love her with all my heart and she will be a part of my life so we will just have to understand eachother and repsect our decisions no matter what. Isn't that what friends are for? Ok, I will stop now before I start to cry. I am so emotional it's disgusting..........!

On another note...I am so happpyyyyy!!! My guy and I have been spending alot of time together and we love it. We are so comfortable with eachother and it only gets better as time goes by. I have been on Cloud Nine, Ten , Eleven and Twelve.....lol. My feelings for him are intense, I mean how do I tell him? How do I tell him that he is in my every thought? How do I tell him that all I want is beautiful things for us? That I want him in my life so bad I can taste it....How do I tell him that he has given me something that no one else has which is the right to be me at all times. How do I explain to him that he makes me feel like a Queen. That the confidence he has in "us" makes me want to melt. How do I tell him that I have eyes for no one else but him? How do i tell him that I have fallen harder then a ton a bricks?

I guess I just did.

Have a great weekend ya'll. I know I will. Muah!!!

I can't explain the happiness that I have been feeling inside during the last week. The butterflies in my stomach, the permanent smile on my face when I think of that person, the sound of relief in my voice when I speak of him, the comfort and calm that I feel when I am with him. It feels different, scary but different. Scary because it is so perfect, so new, so sincere and so pure. It feels so natural, so right. I feel at peace, serene and still. Wow....I just can't explain it. I am grateful, thankful and blessed. Blessed to have this person in my life who was there all along and I never realized it. I am Thankful because he is like no other man I have met. He is caring, full of love and wickedly funny. His sincerity entangles my every thought. I feel as if the wool has been pulled away from over my eyes. He is my guide, my light and my path. With him is where I want to be, with him is where I feel safe.
Why do I feel so scared then? Why do I feel as if I shouldn't be feeling like this so soon? Is it wrong? Am I crazy? I can't speak for tomorrow but I can speak for today, for right now and all I know in my heart is that it feels right. I feel as if I found the missing piece to the puzzle in my insane life, the one person who I can be myself with. At all times. I won't be judge or criticized by him. He accepts me and recognizes me for who I am. He appreciates me and I appreciate him. I believe that everything happens for a reason and we are in eacothers life for a reason, what that reason is we have yet to discover. All i know is that if this is a dream, I dont want to wake up from it. I don't and won't let it go. I am crazy about him. One day at a time for sure but I can't keep what I feel inside any longer. I thank the great one above for bringing him into my life.

An update:
Finished reading "Friday Night Chicas". Great book. I am now reading "A Girl Like Che Guevara". I have not been able to finish the introduction for my book. I haven't made the time would be more accurate to say. But I plan on getting to that soon. It's obvious by my thoughts above that I have been a bit distracted, in a good way ofcourse but distracted nontheless.

I ended things with "J" officially. Not like it made a difference. I hadn't heard from him or seen him so why bother to continue something that isn't there. Its a huge relief though.
Anyways, my son's JHS graduation is June 16. He is siked and I am siked for him. My baby is getting big. Wow, to think he will be in HS in September. How time flies. So much to do.

I leave to my first of a few weekend trips on May 27th. I am going to New Mexico with my bestfriend. We will be doing alot of R&R and workshops. We are going with a book club that we belong to. "La Sucias"......I am sure it will be fun. I then head off to Miami in June with an old friend. No pun intended when I say Old....lol...he is 13 yrs my senior. I plan on visiting family and friends and getting alot of sun. Thats pretty much it for now.

Will keep you posted on what happens next with the new man in my life. Caio!

Books, Books and more Books!

I love reading. I have books up the wazoo but I have come to realize that I have been purchasing more books than I can handle....yikes! I said to myself that I was not going to buy any more until I have read them all completely. I have like a good two months worth of reading on my dining room table. Right now I am reading "Friday Night Chicas". Its a book of 4 short stories about how Latinas spend their Friday Nights. I wish my life was as exciting as theirs are....:-(

Anywho.....I am trying to begin the introduction to the book I want to write but yet I can't decide whether or not I should write a memoir or a novel based on my life.... I guess all of us want to write a book about our lives because we feel we have gone thru stuff that others might not have and maybe we can shed some light of why we r who we r today. I emailed two different versions of my intro to my darling cousin who nows says she wants to do the editing when I finish the draft to my book...how sweet is that. I trust her judgement so we will see.
What I really have to do is make the time to actually get some writing done. Once I start I can't seem to stop but with work and home it gets a bit tedious. I have to learn how to discipline myself and thats where I have a hard time. I have to start somewhere. As I write I will post bits and piece on here just to see if what I write makes sense to me. I don't even make sense to me sometimes.....lol....

Well, a brief update on "J":
We are still dating, if you want to call it that except I have not seen him in almost two weeks. He has been busy and I have been busy and well honestly, I just don't know what to make of it. I am gonna ride it out for a little while longer and see what becomes of it.

Ok, off I go to finish the book I have now so that I can get to the pile on my table....food for thought huh...lol

Oh, Happy Birthday Bobby!!! (My bro)

Weekend Short...

The last time I went to have dinner at Uno's was maybe about two years ago. I absolutely love Uno's. I think they have the best apps and deep dish pizza. I went to Uno's on Friday with a girlfriend of mine. We got seated at a booth with a view of the parking lot....now where did all the papi's come from. I never realized that Yonkers had cuties. It was great eye candy, I must admit. But can someone please explain to me the "Reverse Couples" syndrome....Argggghhhh!
I gave it this meaning, a "Reverse Couple" is when one of the two is 200 times better looking then the other. People please....how is it that some of us women find it so hard to attract a good looking man yet we run into hot papi's who are arm in arm with women who are just butt ugly. Ay Dios Mio.....Is love really that blind?? We ALL wonder this...I am merely saying it outloud...lol.
Bueno, back to my weekend. Dinner at Uno's was great, we didn't even have room for desert. We drove back into the city and couldn't find anything to do so I figured we would go check up on my son just to make sure he was not doing anything he shouldn't have been. He was staying at his friends house for the weekend. Well, he actually behaved and was where he was supposed to be so that ended that search. My friend and I still didn't want the night to end and it was already about 11pm so we headed to Brooklyn to meet up with the guy that I am dating. We went, didn't get lost either so thats always good. My friend met him and thought he was cute...hehehe. He is cute. We stayed for maybe ½ hour then headed back home. Corny right...oh well. That is the story of my life.....lol

On Saturday I got up at 12pm, I slept about 10 hrs. I didn't realize how worn out I had been...geez. Pilates is kicking my ass. Anyways, I spoke with "J" (my datee) and we decide to meet in the city at 6pm. We were supposed to hang out with my cousin but he wasn't feeling well. I got there 15 min late but hey, he owed me. As a matter of fact, I still have about ½ hr of lateness credit with him. On our first date he had me waiting for like 45 min....so waiting 15 min for me wasn't gonna kill him. We headed back to my place for dinner and relaxation....wink, wink. Got up Sunday morning at about 10am, took a shower, got dressed, walked"J" to the train station then I called up my friend and we drove to Boston, for the hell of it cause we were bored. Geez, I really need a life. The day was beautiful and looking at the Folaige as we drove was amazing. We had dinner with another friend when we got there then headed back. I made it back in three hours which is pretty good time. My back was shot though...I couldn't sleep all night. The most sleep I got was on the train ride to work. Que Sueño.......zzzzzzzz.

Now after writing it all down, my weekend didn't seem so interesting....que se va hacer. At least I enjoyed it, can't complain there. Next weekend my girlfriends from Boston are coming down to hang out here so that should be fun. Vamos a ver. Bueno, eso es todo por ahora......

Caio!

Some "Me" time

So yesterday I took my first Yoga class and geez did it hurt....Yikes. Now maybe its because I am a thick girl, obviously not skinny, but Lordie what pain!!!! I really enjoyed the breathing excersizes and meditation but the poses we had to do were a killer on my knees. I will try another class and see if it was just because of the fact that I had never done it before, if not then I guess Yoga will be out for me, at least for the time being. I am doing well with my Pilates Class and I love it. So I guess now that I am starting to get into the workout routine then things should begin to fall into place....pun intended...lol.

A little update on my love life. The "ex" that was coming into town a couple of weeks ago never showed, couldn't make it in for some reason. I really don't care. My "sex fix" can wait. Anyways, I met a guy who is younger than me. He is 26 and I am 31. Now I know that some may say "Oh please, it isn't much of an age difference" but with the past experiences that I have had, this was in issue for me at first. Our first date was very casual, I figured if it didn't go well then hey, I am out! That wasn't the case though. We clicked. He is smart, kind, funny and a gentleman. Here is the thing, we are complete opposites. Not my "type" of guy. I believe everyone has a preference as to what kind of person they date or what they look for, well, he is neither of what I consider to be "my type of guy". I usually date the polished, shirt and tie wearing kind of guy. This person's style is that of a 50 Cent video....the baggy pants, big shirt and Du-rag....let's just say he is "Ghetto Fabulous". He is so much fun though, I enjoy being in his company and best of all is that we understand eachother, or at least it feels that way. He blows me away with his intellectuality and completely stimulates me mentally. WHooshhhh!
Well, we are having fun and that is all that matters right now. That is all I am going to say about that.



Starvation calls right now so off to lunch I go!! Muah!

Pilates....Sweet Pain!!

Yesterday I attended my second Pilates class at NYSC. Last Thursday we had this man who was in his 40's and who kept commenting on each pose as he did them. I think he was in more pain then we were...lol. It was funny I must admit but yesterday we had this lady who was sick as a dog. She came in with a cup of tea and was coughing up a storm until class began, then out of no where, this lady gets up and begins the class. She worked us out like if we were in boot camp but wow, I had no idea you could sweat so much with this class. I was feeling the burn with every stretch.....damn. I was cathing cramps left and right..... In the end though, I loved it. I felt like I had accomplished something, at least the burning of some calories.

Prior to Pilates I had done about 30 minutes of Cardio and after Pilates I decided to work on my legs and upper arms....got to get rid of those "lunch lady" arms. I am trying to stay focused and I think I am doing well except once I got home I had a huge bowl of Sugar Smacks cereal. I know, I know...its counterproductive but hey...A girls gotta eat right. I went straight to the gym right after work so I had not eaten dinner.

Anyways, I got a phone call from my ex who says he will be in town this Saturday and wants to "hook up". Yipee for me.. A quick sex fix won't hurt. The Pocket Rocket can only do so much, know what I mean. Now that I am single again I might as well right. I guess it's time for me to create a "Booty Call" bunch...geez, I don't know. NSA's are much better to deal with. I have been trying so hard to find a boyfriend that none have worked out. My last one turned out to be a Pathological Liar, seriously. This dude has problems, mental ones. Why is it so difficult for me? Oh well....I will dwell on that over the weekend.

Tomorrow I have to take my son to the hand clinic and they will tell me whether or not he will need surgery. I hope not, but in anycase whatever needs to be done will be done. That will teach him to punch walls and act like Mr. Tough Guy.

Well I better get my butt back to work here....not like there is much to do but I am thinking about Saturday and I am getting goose bumps. I am sure that my session will be like that of my Pilates Class. There will be alot of changing positions, stretching and sweating. Blissful pleasure, now I just hope I don't get leg cramps.

Oh, so new to this......

Hello there! Come one, come all.....

This is my first posting so bear with me as I gather my thoughts. I have been keeping a journal for a while now, ok, not really. I do own a journal but I don't write in it often because I forget so I figure since I am always on the computer and need an outlet for my thoughts, why not try Blogging it.

So here it goes.....I went to the gym today and did 40 min of cardio, that's it! Then my best friend and I went to Barnes & Noble to buy some books that we want to read now that we have joined Alisa Valdes-Rodriguez' "Sucia" Yahoo group. Then ofcourse we went to eat dinner, Mexican food at that! Completely defeating the purpose of our workout. I know I know, I have no will power but then again, today was day 1. Tomorrow is a new day and I will be back at the gym with no detours afterwards, I promise. I need to lose at least 30lbs by July so I need to get on the ball with my workout. Why 30 lbs? I am in a wedding this summer and the dress is very fitted therefore leaving no room for these chichos.... I am determined and will be posting my progress on here for all to see...yikes! (in code words ofcourse, porsiaca!) You never know who will read this.

My weekend was a relaxing one of sorts, kinda. On Thursday I had a huge argument with my son who is 14 yrs old. It isn't easy being a single mom at 31. Yes, I started young. Shhh....
Because of this I think I try to hard to be my sons friend and less of a parent, this is where things go wrong. I try to enforce certain rules and when they are not respected, well, I get bent out of shape. Words were exchanged, tears were shed (on both parts) and ofcourse a trip to the emergency room. Do not get me wrong or misinterpret this at all. During one of my son's tantrums he punched the wall and broke his pinky. We did not get home till 5am Friday morning. We slept about 1 hour and then got up and got ready for the day.

Therapy is in process....

Friday I go straight home after work, my son and I talk about the night before. I try to make him understand that his behavior will not be tolerated and we come to an agreement in regards to how I will handle certain situations and what is expected of him. I went to bed at about 10pm and got up Saturday at around noon. My parents came over for a bit, then I headed to Dairy Queen in NJ for some ice cream, Heath Bar Blizzard to be exact. Yummy!
My friend Rob was in town from Orlando, Fl and he was supposed to be coming over so I cam back home and waited. He showed up at around 10pm, we talked and laughed for a while and then everyone left, oh yeah, two other friends were here also. I went to bed at about 12:30am.

Got up Sunday morning and made breakfast for my son and I. Pancakes..que rico. We vegged out watching TV while I did some house cleaning then we got dressed and waited for my one of my girlfriends to come and pick us up. We went to have dinner at this Chinese Buffet on Central Ave in Yonkers then headed over to Rob's mom's house to say goodbye since him and wifey were driving back to Florida that evening. Yes, driving. I said my goodbyes and was driven back home. As I come up the stairs to my house I start getting this really bad taste in my mouth. Mind you, I had a huge headache the whole evening but trie to disregard it as a PMS headache. I ran into my house, dropped my coat on the floor and headed to the bathroom where I ended up puking...yuck!!! That is by far the worse feeling in the world. Either I had bad indigestion or I got a small case of Food poisoning. I ended up running back to the bathroom two more times after that before I actually went to bed.

Woke up at 6:30am this morning only to look in the mirror and see tiny little bloodclots all over my face due to the pressure of regurgitating.....I hate it when that happens. I had instant freckles. Geez! My work day was unproductive being that it is real slow these days. I work as an Audit Assistant so there wasn't much for me to do. Then it was off to the gym.......

Well, there you have it. A little journey into my weekend. I can get used to this, writing in here. Its like I am publishing my day, wow.

Bueno, hold on tight because you guys are in for a ride, this is just the beginning of my posts. I can't promise that the rest will be so unexciting.

I am heading to bed now, let's see what tomorrow brings.........Night, night!