Friday, September 30, 2005

How time flies


I tell you, look at that face.... Isn't he handsome? He is already 15 and before I know it he will be 18, then 21 then married with children of his own. I know I come on here and bitch and moan but I love him. He is my son and I will cherish him forever. To me, he will always be my little boy. Muah!

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Summer is officially over

As of tomorrow anyways....lol. I must say I had a great summer. My son turned 15, I am in love and I have no complaints about my work. My son started Highschool and well, so far so good. I had to take away his cell phone though, he ran up a $300 bill all due to a new girlfriend. "For every action there is a consequence, with risk comes reward" just a few things my boyfriend always says. He is right though. I have had to take a few things away from my son in order for him to comprehend that he has to earn the things he wants. Limits, its all about setting limits, something I should have done a long time ago.

Sometimes I second guess myself or question whether or not I am a good mom. It's so hard doing it on your own and I get so emotionally overwhelmed. His dad is in his life on ocassion. When it's convenient for him or when it doesn't interfere with his personal life....geez. Funny how life is huh. Once I gave birth to my son, my life no longer belonged to me. Everything I did, every decion I made was based on him and yet this man has not an inkling of what that is like and this is his son too.

I have been blessed to have found someone who shares the same values and thoughts of what parenting should be like. We want to be there for our kids, we want to make and share memories with them, we want our kids to always know that they can come to us no matter what. We are not looking for "replacement parents" for our children no matter how bad our previous relationships were. We just want to be able to share opinions and ideas and thoughts. We want to be there for one another and for the kids. We want to be able to show them that not every relationship is the same. Just because things didn't work out before doesn't mean that it won't now. We compliment eachother and don't take eachother for granted. We give eachother space and yet indulge in our times spent together. Knowing and understanding eachother is what makes things work. Respect is number one and when you show that towards eachother, the kids learn from it and embrace it. I wouldn't trade it for the world. Every couple have their moments of misunderstandings and disagreements, ofcourse. It wouldn't be normal without it, but when you stop and think and rationalize and work it out, its the best feeling. Love is powerful and with love comes understanding and patience. I wouldn;t have it any other way.

Ok, ok...enough of the mushy stuff, now for some more updates. We went to Six Flags with the kids. It was our "Family Trip". We had alot of fun and then ofcourse, we caught a flat on the way home....ughh! We did the Zoo thing and the movie thing alot. I saw so many movies this summer. I can't complain there. We are saving up now for Christmas. I didn't go to Miami this year but my girlfriend from Miami will be coming to visit me instead. That is going to be fun. I must make sure she gets to see a Broadway show this time. Another one of my girlfriend got engaged last week and another friend, a childhood friend is getting married in November and asked me to be a Bridesmaid....lol. I couldn't say no.

Well, this weekend is my cousin's housewarming party so that should be fun. I will get to see a few people I haven't seen in a while. My cousin and her boyfriend got their own place together so this will be the first time that his family will meet my family....yikes...lol.

I want to start writing again but my mind is at a blank write now. I guess I will start to carry a journal with me because then when I get those moments when I do have alot on my mind, I can jot it all down and go from there....until then, take care.